metro mama

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Anniversary Ennui

You’ve probably noticed, the proportion of words to photos around here has become even less than usual of late. Today also happens to mark my one-year blogging anniversary, and I wish I were more excited. I must confess, I’ve been feeling a lot of bloggy discontent and thought I might as well share and get it off my chest.

My State of Discontent

Stupid stats
No need to go into detail here, this is a common complaint. I have come to realize, I really am content being a small blogger. I need to kill the site meter and I’ll be a happier blogger indeed.

Little Miss Sunshine
I get down on all the angst. I know it’s valuable to have a space where we’re honest about our shortcomings, and how hard parenthood is, blah, blah, blah, but I do get very tired of so much negativity. When you’re learning a sport, it’s best to surround yourself with players who are better at it then you are, thus improving your skills. So, if I want to be a happy, light-hearted, confident parent…

What I’m saying is, I wish there were more laughs. And more poems.

Where does all the time go?
I feel guilty that I waste too much time between blogging and reading other blogs and obsessively checking site meter. I really want to try to write short stories this summer, before school starts again, and I think blogging is a big distraction.

I also want to fuck my husband more often.

I actually gave serious thought lately about calling it quits at the one-year mark, but I don’t think I’m ready.

You’re My Inspiration

The main reason I don’t quit is you people. Damn you. So many of you have become real-life friends. A couple of you I knew before, but now consider close friends. There are several of you I am dying to meet at BlogHer. You folks are just too important to give up.

Plus, even if I’m not doing very good writing, at least I’m writing almost daily. And I must admit, there is something very satisfying about a consistent number of people reading my words each day—no matter how large that number is, it is thrilling, and it’s an honour.

So I guess this means, I’m hanging in there.

Thank-you, my friends.

Less blogging, more triking!



Blogger ewe are here said...

Happy 1st Blogoversary!

Glad you're going to stay in the blogosphere!:-)

2:24 PM  
Anonymous MetroDad said...

Happy blog birthday, MetroMama! Glad you didn't decide to shut the blog down. Where would I go to find a like-minded reader? I love your book reviews and hearing about the family.

2:41 PM  
Blogger Gabriella said...

Don't stop writing! You're one of the blogs I like reading because you rarely complain, unlike me!! So Happy Anniversary and keep on going!

3:14 PM  
Blogger kgirl said...

I complained yesterday, but not about my kid, my lack of sleep, lack of stats or discontentment with life. I was just in a bad mood.

So don't go anywhere.

3:36 PM  
Blogger Christina said...

Happy anniversary! I'm glad you haven't given it up. Like you, I was obsessed with stats, but now I only check them once or twice a week. If a few people are still reading my blog, aside from my husband and family, I'm happy.

And besides, I want to meet you at BlogHer, too! (Are you bringing Cakes? 'Cause I think she and Cordy would get along well!)

3:37 PM  
Blogger metro mama said...

Christina: Can't wait to meet you. Nope, I'm not bringing Cakes, but they have so much in common. Maybe some day!

3:40 PM  
Blogger Mouse said...

Happy Anniversary!

I totally get your reasons for discontentment with blogging, especially the idea that the time could be spent on other, more crafted writing. But I also came to the same conclusion that, "At least I'm writing something." Glad you'll be sticking around!

3:59 PM  
Blogger NotSoSage said...

Happy Blogiversary.

Yeah, the time factor has led me to consider whether this is a worthy pursuit but, like you, I'm addicted to the people. Sigh. Here's to another year!

4:14 PM  
Blogger something blue said...

Happy One Year! It is awesome to have become friends and to read your lovely words. I come for the cake (Cakes!) and nice dose of honesty.

4:59 PM  
Blogger Sandra said...

You know that I TOTALLY get this. And selfishly I am so so glad you are sticking around :)

Happy Blogiversary my friend!

5:20 PM  
Blogger SciFi Dad said...

Just a thought: this is your blog and as such you have the right to write whatever and however you want.

To that end, if the time ever came where you felt like it was consuming or imposing too much on your life, don't shut it down: change its focus. Use it as a space to post story ideas, drafts, or even a serialized version of the writing you want to be doing.

Your readers will still come, and the feedback will still be there.

Anyways. That's just my two cents. Happy Blogiversary.

7:57 PM  
Anonymous sam (viable vixen) said...

Happy Blogiversary!

All I can say is that I feel what you're saying about being a small blogger. Heck I am minuscule compared to you, and sometimes I wonder why I even bother. LOL

8:13 PM  
Blogger Mommy off the Record said...

Happy blogiversary!

I know how you are feeling which is why I "quit" a couple months ago, only to creep back. I guess the key is finding the right amount of time to put into it for you. Though this is easier said than done. It seems that the computer just sucks up so much time no matter how you try not to let it consume you!

8:37 PM  
Blogger crazymumma said...

if you even think about crawling off I will hunt you down and haul you back.

Your writing is more than good, we all want more Cakes, fuck your husband more quickly, and get back to blogging.

besides I have so many more angst filled stories for you to roll your eyes at....


9:14 PM  
Blogger Mrs. Chicky said...

Happy Blogiversary, my dear.

Believe me I know of which you speak. Kill the site meter and traffic tracking device. It will make you feel so much better.

9:33 PM  
Blogger Lisa b said...

I'm glad you not quitting. Though more sex seems to be a reasonable alternative.

10:41 PM  
Blogger jen said...

dude. i think that it's like any relationship - infatuation and adoration, and then the honeymoon phase winds down, and we get a bit crabby. but underneath the crabby is deeper devotion. care.

it makes it hard to quit that, doesn't it.

and dude. blogher. i so can't wait to meet you. glad you are continuing to hang around, in whatever form that takes.

11:10 PM  
Blogger Haley-O said...

Happy Blogiversary, Metro! I didn't even celebrate mine.... I think that writing something (almost) every day is a very valuable task -- no matter who's reading. It can only help you with your short-story writing, etc.. I'm sure you'll find more of the inspiration you need, too, at Blogher. :)

12:24 AM  
Blogger nomotherearth said...

Happy Blogiversary! You would be very much missed if you left - so please don't! I get the feeling that it's taking up too much time, though.

9:17 AM  
Anonymous Redneck Mommy said...

Listen to Mrs. Chicky. She is a wise woman...(she chose to room with my hairy ass at Blogher...) Kill the site meter and don't worry about the numbers. Your writing rocks and this is just a tool to help sharpen your tool.

Happy Blogoversary.

And I'm about wetting my pants with excitement to meet you too. (Not THAT type of excitement. Sheesh.)

2:50 PM  
Blogger kittenpie said...

Happy blogging, today and always!
We love you too...

5:08 PM  
Blogger aimee / greeblemonkey said...

Totally hear you. Totally.

And sometimes I feel like my silly blog is worthless because I don't have deep, inspirational posts all the time.

9:00 PM  
Blogger Denguy said...

I ditched my site meter a while ago. Dumbass thing.

I actually blog at the pub with a pencil and a little notepad. Small amounts of time to myself twice a week after the kids are in bed.

Thank-you for the linky-link.

9:14 PM  
Blogger Mad Hatter said...

I have the sitemeter but I rarely check it. It ain't worth the grief. As for the angst, I think I must be reading the wrong blogs (or rather, the right blogs). I find the blogosphere a joyous, insightful, introspective and at times wonderfully silly place to be.

Like you, I wrestle with the time issue but I have recently given myself some rules. Onwards. And a happy, non-ennui blogiversary to you. BTW, am lovin' Cakes on the trike.

10:17 PM  
Blogger cinnamon gurl said...

I think Swee'pea's in love with Cakes on her wheels... he keeps looking and pointing.

Happy Bloggyversary; sorry for the ennui.

6:48 AM  
Anonymous Nancy said...

Happy Bloggiversary!

I am glad to have your voice in the blogsphere, though I certainly struggle with the same aspects you mentioned. (I've been in a major blogging lull lately).

Hope to meet you myself one of these days.

3:53 PM  
Anonymous ali said...

maybe i'm *wrong* but you hardly seem like a small blogger....


i'm glad you're stickin' around...i can't get enough of miss cakes.

i think i'm the only one NOT going to blogger...bah.

10:33 PM  
Anonymous krista said...

I am glad you are sticking around too. And HAPPY BLOGIVERSARY!

I am happy being a blogger with fewer numbers too. With regard to the site meter I've noticed that when I am happy and doing well, it seems my numbers drop.

I think that is the strangest phenomenon.

But I don't mind really. I am grateful for my blogging friends, and I know that I have some blogging friendships that are so solid they transcend the blogging ennui stuff I get sometimes.

I love your blog. I visit as often as I can, and I am glad you are going to keep writing it!

11:30 AM  
Blogger Her Bad Mother said...

Happy blogiversary (late! gah! was sick and languishing in hotels!)

You WILL hang in there. You must. Because you rock.

9:36 PM  

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